Saturday, July 6, 2013

The Beginning

Stepping out of the boat! The beginning of my journey.  I've  moved out of my condo, sold most of my furniture, put the rest of my belongings in storage.  I'm living out of suitcases, staying with family and friends until the day arrives.  The day that will forever change my life.  The day I step onto the airplane and give it all to God.  The day I fly to Entebbe, Uganda to be the hands and feet of Jesus.  I've been experiencing a rush of emotions since I wheeled the last suitcase out of my empty home. "I'm homeless!  How is this going to work for me?  Where do you want me to go?  What are my next steps?  Next 30 steps?  100 steps?"  I feel a nervousness in my stomach.  I do not know my next week, my next month, the next year, but what I do know is that I am putting it into God's hands and know He will guide me step by step.  I may not know my next 30 steps, 100 steps, 365 steps but what I do know is that my ever faithful Father will show me if I put my faith in Him, if I totally and freely give up my fleshy desire of wanting to know everything and trust in Him.

1 Peter 2:9-10  "But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a Holy nation, God's special possession that you may declare the praise of Him who called you out of the darkness into His wonderful light.  Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy."

God has selected me and everything about me to participate in the work that He is doing at this point in history.  God is well aware of His reasons for choosing me.  His choice of me is based on a deep, intimate knowledge of who I am, who He has designed me to become.  I have been chosen by God who sees me as an  unequally suited, equipped and capable daughter who can carry out such an amazing plan with intricate precision.  God has already given me enough.  He always does!  With this in mind I continue to move forward.  Continue to listen to His step by step guidance.  I do not let fear overwhelm me but I continue to live in His peace, the peace that surpasses all understanding.  Knowing that I am following His will.  He will provide everything I need.  I turn it all over to him. He knows my desires and what is best for me.  I am choosing to trust in Him and His perfect timing.